The writer of Naruto has to be one of the cruelest men on earth!  I am in agony...!!!  After weeks we still don't know for certain if my beloved Kakashi is alive or dead.  I haven''t been able to write and the only ongoing story I have on the 'net is my Naruto story, "The Turning Away."  I finished "Savin' Me."  I finished "Damn Traditions" my very long DBZ story, and am reviewing "Rent" my first but unpublished DBZ story.  I did get a sequel of my Final Fantasy 7 AC story out last week, it just popped into my head, but then the manga that week was boring and there was no Kakashi in it.  I don't want to lose him.

And all this after meeting his English voice actor, my number one favorite at that.  And gods is he one gorgeous piece of man flesh.  You should see him in an acubra!  Yummy.  And he bent over in front of me...o....o....o...!!!  =)  Lovely sight I can tell you. (reaches for fan)  He signed a lot of stuff for me,  My FF7AC dvd has three aignatures on it now, Yazoo, Reno and Rude!  I am happy.  And I took my favorite postcard of FF7AC which Dave hadn't seen before, he thought it was nice, and so I have Yazoo's autograph and an instant prize possession.  Yes the Dave I refer to is Dave Wittenberg.  He was here with Johnny Yong Bosch, (wonderful man too! ) and the second time I met Crispin Freeman, also a wonderful man.  Three nice blokes all in a row, it was good.  My signature wall is getting more and more names!  I'll run out of wall at this rate.  The next con is on March.  So far Vic Mignona is coming, he played with my hair once and called me a wild woman!!!!  It was a Kamehameha contest mind...  I still enter those, I even have some fans!!!  Unbelievable, but nice at the same time... 

I hope to go on holidays soon, and I hope we'll know for sure about Kakashi by then.  I look at all my wall scrolls and pray for him to live.  It's not fair, there's still so much we don't know about him!  Amd I still want to know about what happened to Rin.  And see his face, not his father's, even if they are similar.

I bought tons of new anime recently, I have watched Scryed and X so many times and I still don't get sick of them.  I also got .hack//sign, Heat Guy J and Samurai Champloo, which I had seen a little of but not all.  And now we have anime on Sci fi channel once a week, it's great, Ghost on the Shell I will never tire of, Cowboy Bebop still has a huge spot in my heart, Spike is unforgettable anyway.  Then there's Black Lagoon, which I'm glad in on so late, not for my nine year old that one.  And lastly Blood + which I had wanted to see, but still isn't out on dvd yet.  I hope Madman will get it.  Death note is close to finishing too, and I have enjoyed that.  I loved the live action movies so much I bought them, though I don't have the third one yet, I will get it though, L was my favorite character. 

I am also hanging out to see the last two episodes of Yugioh GX coz Yugi's in them.  He and Kashi are equal in my eyes.  I might look into the new one, but... well I want more Yugi!  I have a Seto/Yugi  set after GX story in the works, but when I'll get to it...  aI am reading the manga on the train which is still a sardine can to get home on.  One night we were there when a man fell onto the tracks.  It upset me to see the gawkers going to look at him under the train, especially when they said he was still alive.  He died later in hospital.  Anyway I am reading the manga and enjoying the parts that are different from the anime.  That's why I buy them in the first place, if I like an anime I want to see the manga.  Though Scryed's is a little... bad.  The anime is wonderful.

So another week to wait and wait and wonder.  Will I survive it?

Tags: anime, dave wittenberg, kakashi, writing, yugioh
Current Location: lala land
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Trinity Blood

I got home on Friday from spending a month in hospital with my son.  It turns out in the end that he does not have Asperger's Sydrome, just when I thought we knew what it was.  I am glad to learn that he's normal, but there has to be so many changes.  My work is not going to like some of them.  But then I haven't been happy there any way.  Perhaps it is time for me to seek out new things in life.  I lost weight, but have more I need to rid myself of so I bought an exercise bike.  Although I may not use it this week as I have a house to clean for my son's delayed birthday party.  I've had a month off work and took another off for me, I know I'll need it, already my head is still partly in hospital mode.  I was rather claustrophobic and felt really cut off from the world even though we came home for weekends.  I'm still trying to catch up.

Two of my stories disappeared from AFF.net while I was in because the disclaimers needed fixing, really pisses me off.  One of them was complete and the other had only one chapter to go.  Not sure if they'll reappear and if I lost all the reviews but I tried to fix that tonight.  I was only able to update one story while in there, my 20000+ hits DBZ story.  I am still amazed at that.  My Naruto story which has disappeared is almost done, I hope to get some done tomorrow and have it up for Kakashi's birthday.  I missed Dave's on the 1st.  He's coming here in November and I will be there, but will I get a chance to meet him considering that the last time I went to the Amageddon convension I never got a chance to meet any of the guests as the line was too long and it was over before I got there.  And it's only one line for all the animation guests, which is again ridiculous.  At least at Suparnova you get to meet who you want to meet.  Sean was to be coming back for November but has had to pull out due to work, that's sad I really wanted to see him again.  But then Vash the Stampede is coming instead, again who knows if I'll meet him.  I'd love to get my DVD signed by him along side Jeff Nimoy's.  And Akira as well with Joshua Seth's autograph on it already.

I read also that the Worldcon is coming back,  It usually does every ten years.  I went to Aussiecon 2. but had to miss Aussiecon 3 as I had only given birth a week before, now there is Aussiecon 4.  I have to go to that in 2010.  Hmm, I meet my son's father at Aussiecon 2, gave birth before Aussiecon 3, what will happen at Aussiecon 4?

I bought a new tv just before going into hospital and it blew not even a month later.  Now I'm fighting to get it replaced, it sucks having to go back to the mini tv, the big screen was great.  I had to go for a cheap one because I didn't have the money for anything esle and it backfired.  I have to call head office tomorrow to see what can be arranged for it. 

I am anxious about the Naruto Manga, I love how big Gamakichi is now, but I worry so for Kakashi.  It seems to take so long and I want to see more of the anime but they are repeating again, so I'm hoping they'll go into new stuff at the end of that. 

I also have so much hayfever from all the pollen of spring.  I never used to have it, it's just the past few years that it's gotten to me, something about grass strains affecting more people.  It was warm today but it's supposed to cool down again a bit.  Oh well I have a week of freedom before I go back to work and have to tell them of changes to come or I'll have to quit.  For once that doesn't seem as scary as it used to be, maybe because I passed my 20 years there  Though I do have the rates to pay and they are more because the house went up in value!  I can't believe I made 40,000 in one year on this place!  That makes 140,000 I have made since buying 12 years ago.  Now I have to clean it up, and I plan to do some culling along the way, though this time I'll look at what I might be able to sell on ebay.  I'm hoping to start on the cards soon.  I'm tired, time to sleep, have to get the son up for school again now I'm out of the fishbowl I was in for a month.  I'll miss the other kids though and now I know I'm not alone in dealing with my son;s problems and it's more common that I thought.

Tags: conventions, gamakichi, kakashi, naruto, writing
Current Location: lala land
Current Mood: relieved

It's been two weeks since the visit to Sydney.  It was good, tiring, but good.  The guests were wonderful.  All three I went to see were fantastic.  Meeting Sean and being in the Kamehameha contest with him was a highlight, especially when all the contestants gopt to do it on stage with him!  Heaven!  And he was such a friendly man, I had him sign another of my Samurai Deeper Kyo DVD's and the second of my Gokusen's.  Dan Green signed the firsts of them,  I bought Trigun for Jeff Nimoy to sign, he played Wolfwood, happy to have it.  And Quinton Flynn signed two of my Naruto's as well as Advent Children.  He did my some of my favorite Reno lines from the movie too, especially the "I'm still here,"  still jumping up and down with that one.  Bought Crisis Core and got him to sign that too.  Then back at home I saw the Final Fantasy 7 PSP console and bought that for my birthday.

It was nice to stay in a hotel, though the landing at home wasn't so good, first one wheel then the other and then the taxi driver went the wrong way home. 

I've also just spent the week without my son.  It's been fun to do what I want to do, I've been trying to write, but it's been hard.  I watched a movie that I wanted to see, Zodiac.  I enjoyed it.  And I let a story I was reading distract me too.  But I got a lot of Savin' Me done tonight, needs some more, so I hope to get theat done on my last night of freedom before my son is back for my birthday.  He wasn't with me the past two years, but this time he will be.  I am promised a chocolate cake...

My other story is getting so close to 1MB I can't believe it, but it's nearing the end now, almost 19000 hits, not quite, but soon it will be.  Even Savin' Me is doing good.  Then of course I had to start a FF7AC story, didn't I!  Oh well it will be short.  Can't wait for next weeks Naurto manga, things are going to be heating up, and still I fear for my beloved Kakashi.

Tags: final fantasy 7, kakashi, reno, sean schemmel, writing
Current Location: lalaland
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: quiet

I'm off to Sydney in a few hours.  I hope to get a little sleep, but waking up at 4.15 for a 5am flight won't be easy.  I'm already tired and I have three days of convensioneering to do.  It will be our only trip interstate this year for our second Suparnova this year our fifth over all.  This time we're going mainly to see Sean Schemmel, who voices Goku.  Can't wait to do Kamehameha with him!  We're going to do mother son this time, together.  And Quinton Flynn, who plays Iruka....  Yum.  I am looking forward to this trip.  I have my dvd's packed to be signed.  Final Fantasy, Naruto for Quinton, Dragonball Z, Gokusen and Samurai Deeper Kyo and Yugioh GX for Sean,  I also hope to get the box set of Trigun fianlly and get it signed by Jeff Nimoy who played Wolfwood.  We're staying in Sydney this time instead of out at Olympic park, couldn't find a cheaper hotel and I wasn;t going to stay in a pub like last time, no way!!!

The only thing I;m not lokking forward to is eating.  I've gotten used to eating less more often and lost over a stone, I'm not really dieting, but even so it seems to be working.  Still I see junk foood in my future for a few days.  Oh well, I know I'll go back to it returning home.

I'm also draggin along the computer, my son wants to play the Lord of the Rings game I bought.  I rather like it too, in fact gaming has been getting in the way of my writing lately,  Not good.  Damn Traditions should have been updated, but I'm in the middle of a fight and can't post part of it.  So when he's asleep I'll try and write.  My Naruto story is nearing the end and going along okay too, I'm very pleased with both and I may write an extra chapter to my Yugioh story because some are missing my Seto/Yugi stories and I sort of hinted at that in the end.

I'll have to wait till Monday to see the next manga for Naruto, things are heating up and I am fearful.  Who's going to die next?  Oh well it's already 11.30pm and if I'm to get any sleep I must go....

Tags: quinton flynn, sean schemmel, writing
Current Location: lala land
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Saiyuki

I am an obsessive person.  Always have been, always will be.  I obsess over my hobbies, number one being writing.  I obsess over anime, but mostly over characters.  I love Kakashi very much, but not obsessively.  Which is weird, because he is my favorite at the moment.  I have not given up on my beloved Yugi Mutou, I'm trying to write a birthday fic for him, coz it coming up.  No I am obsessing over Yazoo from Final Fantasy.  I surf for him every night, trying to find something new and Yaoi, it's got to be Yaoi,  And while I've found some good ones, there's a few that have made me cry for him.  One which is not a yaoi is amongst these, but there was no end to the story and it's sequel is off on another tangent, so I don't think I'll ever find out what happened to him.  The story I refer to is called Lost and Found, it's on FF.Net.  Damn good.  Like I said I cried.  If a story can make me cry then it's a good one to me.  It has a sequl like a said, I think it;s called Paradise, but there is no mention of Yazoo, and is set way ahead of the other.  The other story is on Mediaminer, called Jenova's Children.  I cried for him again, at least this one is still being updated, and might be Yaoi, though it's a little hard to tell at times.  I look for it every time I go there.  I spend time surfing ebay for anything with him, and there's not a lot.  Seems the three brother's weren't important enough.  Well there is a figure if Kadaj, but no Yazoo.  I sometimes confuse his face with Sephiroth's because they are so alike.  I like Sephi too, and Vincent and Reno, any of them with Yazoo is yummy.  There's another great set of stories by puffer on Aff.net, the best Reno/Yazoo P've read.  And also there is a story by Frizz with Yazoo not enjoying himself, but wanting Vincent.  I want to see that happen, oh yeah, really like Vincent/Yazoo.  

So you can see, I really am obsessed.  Again.  This has happened before.  

Also I have been watching Death Note.  Love it, can't wait to see what happens.  I'm so tempted to find out, but decided not to, I want to use some patience with it.  Besides Naruto it's the only Anime we have.  I've heard Cartoon Network dropped Adult swim aniome because of ratings.  Are they insane.  I'm not watching it as much anymore, and everything they have on I could probably recite word for word they are so over repeated.  They at least had a Narutothaon on the weekend.  But it was nothing I hadn't seen before.  Though they showed the first movie, which I already own, but it was the firt time on tv.  I got Manga 29 today and am looking forward to reading 402 on saturday.  It makes my weekend to read that.

Both my stories are doing well.  Damn Traditions has hit 17800 or more.  Still can't get over that.  I was going to push to rap it up, but some poeple seem a little disappointed in that.  So I'll go back to my original plan.  Though the next chapter is proving damn hard to write.  I have the idea in my head, but getting there in the right way is eluding me.  I've started it three times already and discarded them.  This is unusal for me, I donlt normally rewrite that much like this.  I'll have to try again tomorrow.  I want to post something this weekend so I can get to the Yugioh story.  The other, my Naruto story Savin Me is also going well.  I had some reviews from people telling me they don't normally review.  Man they are really kind to do so and I'm glad I am pleasing them.  It's getting close to the end, unlike the other one.  And I have a new one already in the works.  The other day when I couldn't get DT right I wrote some more of it, it's a Kabuto revenge story.  And finally last night I did start on a Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children story.  Wonder why...  Wonder if I'll publish it?

Tags: final fantasy 7, naruto, writing, yazoo
Current Location: lala land
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: ooooh quiet

Tonight I was looking through the catalogues which are geared up for mother's day, hurrying to get to the pages I like best, and it struck me.  I AM NOT A  NORMAL MOTHER!  I realised that most mum's would like those early pages in the catalogues of clothes and appliances and manchester.  Not me, I'd rather get an Anime DVD or a manga or...  A VIDEO GAME!!!  I've just booked our flights for a weekend away, TO A CONVENTION!!!! in Sydney.  I'm not young, hell it's my 20th anniversay at my job tomorrow!!!  But why do I feel like a big kid!  And more than that, why doesn't it bother me either...

I was on the train which as usual was like a sardine can, they said things would change with the new timetable, hahahahahahaha!!  I laugh at you Connex... Anyway I was wedged between two schoolgirls, private school teens.  One of them was making fun of a friend who just wanted to get home and watch anime prefeably Naruto and write fanfiction all night.  I stood there trying not to laugh.  Later the train thinned out a little closer to home and my coat could be seen with my Naruto pins on it.  "Oh do you like Naruto?" I was asked by the girl who told the story.  "Yes I replied... and I write fan fiction too!"  That cracked her up so much she turned red, never ever expecting me to say that.  Later I heard them describe it as freaky.  What would their faces have been like if I had said I write Yaoi fanfiction!

My DBZ story is falling in it;s readership, it's a year old now, still can't believe that one.  But that says to me it's time to wrap it up and end it.  My Naruto story had me stumped for a while, then a yaoi scene took over and off it went again.  There is not enough Iru/Kaka around!!!!  I want to read more of it.  I love Naru/Kaka a lot too, well, just about anyone nailing Kakashi is good for me!  Do I really have a thing for bottoming out the stronger characters?  Although I wouldn't count my beloved Yugi in that catagory and he's always a bottom in my stories.  I must do another I miss him.  And he's in the last two episodes of GX.  I want to see them.

It's Beltane too, though technically it's over here in Australia, and really should be Samhain...   Blessed Be,,,,

Like I said earlier it's been 20 years since I began as a printer on a Xerox 1065,  I had a wonderful Docutech135, but he's gone and now I have a crappy Konica.  Well, I shouldn't say that Numbah One works his ass off for me, but I've had better!!!!  I didn't  think I'd make it late last year. but here I am, things are good, but about to get busier with two courses next year instead of one at the law school I work at as Senior Printer,  But with the way things are I'm only just making ends meet and the cred cards are close to maxed.  So I should get to bed, after a really quick surf...

Tags: motherhood, naruto, writing
Current Location: lala land
Current Mood: weird
Current Music: Naruto soundtracks

After such a good weekend, I had a hard week at work, with two days doing the jobs of three people, including myself.  It ran me down too much, that by Friday night I had the flu.  I'm still trying to get over it, and not having any time off.  So my writing has suffered this week, only got a little of Damn Traditions done.  Then of course the Naruto Manga left me on a cliffhanger and worse is knowing that we have to wait till the end of the month to see what happens next while wonderful Mr Kisimoto has a break, well deserved but.... damn a month!

I've been watching more of my DVD collection, moving on to Initial D, where I first fell for Dave Wittenberg's voice.  Still love the show, I had never ever been into cars before that, now I understand how to drift, and I can't even drive!  Well saying I wasn't into car racing would be wrong, I used to love formula 1.  Nikki Lauda was my satr, coming back the way he did and winning with McLaren.  I lost interest a little when he left, but when a driver I liked was killed, I couldn't watch anymore, and I;ve never gone back.  From Initial D, I found a story I really loved, called Unlimited, I re read it again this week, damn good,  Tak and the Takahashi brothers, mmmmm.

Tonight I learned that Yugioh Gx is ended, so I had to find out if Yugi appeared, and he did!  Did a happy dance, not just Yugi but Yami too, even better.  Can't wait to see it.  Not sure about the new show, it has no relation to the other two at all.  We'll see how it goes.

I suppose I;d better get some more rest

Tags: initial d, naruto manga, writing, yugioh
Current Location: lala land
Current Mood: lethargic

Boy am I tired.  I went to Supanova in my home city and had a ball as usual.  But of course I missed out of my sleep in time, still it was worth it.  On Friday evening I went to the opening, then hung around for the charity auction.  It was just fun to watch.  Spike Spencer, Monica Rial and Collen Clinkenbeard were joined by Michael Winslow and his incradible voice,  He was the auctioneer in the end.  I was killing myself laughing and oh Mister Spencer is so sexy! and funny too.  Then the next day started the beginning of spending waaayyyy too much money!  My DVD collection has grown.  I got the second part of Karas, already had the first.  It was good.  Got the last Eureka Seven manga, and yes it was very different from the anime, I liked the anime ending better.  My son went in the cosplay as Trunks, didn't win this time, but still he enjoyed it, that's all that matters.  He is a convention kid afterall, he may as well get used to it.  That was his fifth and he's only 8.  I was 17 at my first.  I made a few new friends. always great that.  Then home to read the Naruto manga, because I was hanging out for that too.  It did not disappoint and now I'm on the edge of my seat wanting to see what happens next!!!!

Back to the con today, watched a panel with the three VA above, it was fun to hear their stories.  Then I bought some more stuff, more dvd's this time to get signed.  I got the box set of Trinity Blood minus one dvd, but I'll get that later.  Monica and Colleen signed that.  And Orphen which Spike signed.  A lot of my collection is signed, and I hope to get more of it signed at future conventions.  My son and I went into the Kamehameha competition, my fifth, got to the second round, both of us, but that was it, no final round.  Still it was fun, I love screaming like that!  Bought some Kakashi badges, leaf headbands and a Kakashi plushie, a Dragonball Z Manga, like I said way too much money gone.... and I only got paid on Thursday.  It's gonna be a poor two weeks.  And I have to get up early tomorrow to go back to work while my son has to be dropped off at child care during the school holidays and I will have to catch two trains and two buses twice a day for a week!  He's going to a cartooning camp, I hope he likes it and doesn't get into too much trouble.  He likes to draw and they know he has Asperger's.  I hope he has fun.  I will be looking forward to next weekend and the extra sleep I want.  And daylight savings ends, always a good thing.  I don't mind the extra daylight, it just takes me a while to adjust, going back is better.  I need sleep now.....

Tags: collen clinkenbeard, conventions, karas, monica rial, naruto manga, spike spencer, supanova
Current Location: bedroom
Current Mood: tired

It's hard to believe that on Monday it was so hot we broke the March reacord for over night temperature at 29 degrees, too bloody hot to sleep, then last night I was in my nice warm sweats to keep warm!  It's warm tonight though, I had the fan on until just a short time ago, and it's supposed to rain tomorrow, I really hope so.  And the heat has stopped me from wanting to write.

Speaking of writing, I learned today that it is easier for me to write sex, than most other things.  I write Yaoi, but my big stories do have plots.  My cuurent too, "Damn Traditions" and "Savin' Me" have proven to be long and complicated.  The DBZ story "Damn T" is opver 136 pages about Vegeat accidentally taking Kakarott as his mate.  I am up to a fight scene, usually I base these off actual fights, but I haven't been able to find the right fight for this one.  I used parts of Majin Vegeta vs Goku, but it didn't have all that I needed, and now I have the second part of that to finish.  There is only 3 to almost 4 pages, but I have only half the fight finished.  Of course I was trying to watch Naruto at the same time, new Naruto, two episodes I hadn't seen during the week.  It was distracting, but I got most of my writing done in the ads and a little after when I got too tired.

Then of course there's Savin' Me my Naruto story.  I only have a little of that written too, because I'm trying to save Kakashi from the loonie bin  Still it was easier to write his sex scenes than the part I am up to now.  I'll need to find a good Yaoi to read tonight on the net to get me in the mood tomorrow.  At least I have the day off and I'm not going anywhere.

I'm trying to write this and watch Ghost in the Shell at the same time.  I'm still doing that, watching dvd's when there is nothing else to watch.  This week GITS second gig and Weiss Kreuz are being watched, though I got thorough Yami No Matsuei this week.

I'm also happy that Kakashi is back in the Naruto manga, though who knows what happened with Itachi and Sasuke, I have the feeling it's not finished yet.

The only bad things this week, is that I agreed to the six week hospital stay with my son, then learned my wonderful neighbours have been given the boot by the bastard owner.  He wants his daughter to live next door.  It's not fair.  They would have watched the house for me, now I'll be worrying about it all the time I'm not there.  We come home weekends, but I'll worry anyway.  I have to look into wireless broadband while I'm there so I can stay online.  I depend on the net now.  I'm on usually six days a week and sometimes the full 7 in the evenings.

Oh well I'm tired, best to get some sleep.

Tags: ghost in the shell, naruto, weiss kreuz, writing
Current Location: lala land
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Ghost in the Shell OST

It's hot, and it's going to be hot for the rest of the week.  So much for cool nights snuggling up to a warm laptop.  I got a grand total of two pages done today!  I wanted to write on Friday but I was tired.  Things have been good at work so that has helped.  But what with getting dehydrated on Wednesday, I think it took too much out of me.  And on Friday I was a little upset after the Naruto episode, it was so sad.  One of the things that pulled me into the show was the music.  I fell in love with the piece of music called "Sadness and Sorrow".  I've watched all the amine videos based on it on You Tube, and actucally buying the soundtrack pleased me no end.  Such a sad beautiful piece.  And then tonight I tried to write during the weeks repeats, but as I said above, only got two pages done.

I've been reading fan fiction again, mostly Final Fantasy 7, I'm still going through FF.net's stuff.  I said I loved Yazoo and I've noticed he is paired with his brothers alot, which is good, I like to read them.  Then with Reno, but I am intrigued by Sephiroth or Vincent pairings with him, yummy, not many, but... yummy.

And I've also gotten bored with cartoon network, too many repeats, so I've been digging into my extensive DVD collection.  Seeing as I am reading the manga on the train, I wanted to see the DVD of Samurai Deeper Kyo, with Dan Green's delicious voice as Kyo/Kyoshiro, therir american copies, but I can play them on mine.  Then I also got back into Ghost in the shell as well.  When I first watched it I loved Togusa and Aoi and had a side liking for Saito.  Of course I love Saito now a little bit more than Togusa.  Fickle me...

Damn it's hot, I thinl Ill keep this short, I don't have work tomorrow, we have Labor day off, I hope I have time to write.....

Tags: dan green, final fantasy 7, ghost in the shell, naruto, samurai deeper kyo
Current Location: lalaland
Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: Eureka 7 soundtrack